Heat.

Today i am way too hot and dreaming of this amazing lunch i had on sunday with the boyf.

Heaven.

xx

Oh, we got a nintendo 3ds today, have to wait till he gets home so he can open it...

A post of love

Cake at Anna Blume Cafe in Prenzlauerberg

Hello!!

So i got back in from a bit of a shopping spree before and felt so content and happy i just had to write this post.

Things i love about Berlin!

• the flats are big, old, and very affordable
• everything you need is 5 minutes away, max
• you can eat cake whenever you want.....even in the morning :)
• you can have tattoos and no-one gives a shit!! back in england people would comment on my tattoos ALL THE TIME. an old woman even told me she disapproved and that i would have them forever. duh. here though, everyone has tattoos, and no-one really gives a rats ass if you have any or not! its a.may.zing.
• you can walk around reading and no-one spares a second glance
• it feels like home. i was born and lived 4 hours away from here in herford, germany has my heart, back then, now, forever.

I may be reading George r.r Martins Ice and Fire series, and i may be on book 3 pt 1, and i may be so into it that i read it all the way to the underground this morning and all the way home this afternoon......it takes 10-15 minutes to walk to the station.....

I love being able to walk and read, i used to do it all the time when i was younger.

Oh it totally just rained and i was wincing waiting for the thunder, but none came! It's so nice for it to rain quietly!

Ah, peas x

Storms and THE haircut

So i live in an old flat in Berlin. On the 3rd floor.

I was totally fine with this. Last year we lived on the 4th floor and that last set of stairs were always a pain in my ass. So when i found out we had a 3rd floor flat i was pretty chuffed.

Until the storms started.

I have never been afraid of thunder, or lightning, or heavy rain. But being so high up (i'm used to bungalows) is a mind bobomb. It's awful!! You feel like the thunder is personally attacking you and trying to scare you!!

We had the worst storm this monday. It was well over 30degrees in the day, no wind, just really still and close and hot. Then it started to get really windy, and all the birds flew away, and the sky turned black.....

I was starting to get worried bcos my boyfriend was walking home when it started, at one point i couldn't see out of the window because the rain was falling so hard.

It was getting to the point where i was starting to panic because he had been walking home for ages, i peeked out of the front door and saw this sight coming at me up the stairs!!

Look how wet! It took 4 days for his shoes to dry! Felt so sorry for him, why didn't he stop in a cafe or a shop?!

So yeah, i am terrified of storms now because they feel so so close. Anyone else have this problem in a flat?!

Remember i said i got a drastic hair cut. Well here is the before and after.

BEFORE-oh, look at my big ol' fringe :(

AFTER-it's a bit fluffy today lol

So yeh, there you have it. It's kind of growing on me. I still wish she hadn't cut a wonky, squiggly fringe! Mean!!

Busy week this week, Vic Ruggiero gig last night, Social Distortion and Frank Turner tonight, then a night out with the boyfriends work 2moro to celebrate the end of a big project!

How cosmopolite we are! Will post at the weekend, it will be big and it will be picture heavy :) x

If i was you....

Happy Friday!

A small story, years and years ago, when i was about 14/15, my Oma made a cake. It was a beautiful cake. Coconut topping, light sponge, yet it was really moist. I don't mean just moist, it was wet. With cream. It was the most delicious cake i have ever eaten and for years i have been trying to find a recipe. I'll admit though...i'm not the best at looking for things.

My mum said she had the recipe and made it for me a few years ago. No. It wasn't the same. Not even close. I was gutted because i thought i had finally found the cake.

Anyway, i did a bit of googling and found the cake!!

I google imaged rather than searched for recipes, found it straight away!!

It's called Blechkuchen and is a traditional German sheet cake. It's yummy.

So my mum gave me another recipe and i made it, i made way too much, i have slices and slices of it in the freezer. But that's good, it can freeze! Cake on tap yes!

In other news i was very lucky to be included in Sandra Dieckmann's If i was You project. This week it was my turn and i had to follow Hayley Warnham. I did a fair bit of research and here's what i came up with.....eventually lol!

If i was Hayley i would start a club where only people who had Fisheyes are allowed in to play.

I feel really lucky to be in such good company, go check out the site!

Also this week i finally got my care package from my sister, it was very fun, i've been waiting for this for weeks so to finally have it is a big 'yeey'.......

A cute card, because 'i like bunting' lol.

My first bag of goodies, some clips for my uber short hair, false eyelashes for nights out, mainly because i have really short hair now and want to make my eyes 'pop' a bit more! Asda's own eyelashes are like less than £2 but they are so good. I don't use them more than once because it freaks me out a bit, but my sister can keep them on for well over a week, pretty sturdy and not too fake looking, a nice cheap pair :)

She also sent me the ugliest earrings i have ever seen, i told her i didn't like them, she went 'yeh i didn't think you would' !! Why get them then skel?!

And finally.....

Check out how happy i am, with my squinty eye and old lady claw hand! Ha!

My Topshop creme blush!! In flush! I have heard good things about this so begged and bribed my sister to get me one and send it over to me. It's more pink than i imagined but thats a good thing, i'm pretty pale so suit pinky things rather than brown/orangey stuff.

I took a trip to the mall, Robin Sparkles wasn't there unfortunately, but i did find some pretty amazing make up! I have been looking into the Urban Decay 'Naked' palette because i love love love nudey eyeshadow colours, however, its like $45-$75 (!!??!!) which is way way waaay out of my price range! So i was in this fancy looking shop and found some NYX palettes that were just my thing. One is browns and one is glitter. They were really cheap aswel, and wear really well so i am hugely excited to wear these!

I've been a bit ill though so haven't bothered with make up these past few days. I think it was the beginnings of a cold, sniffly/blocked nose, hot and cold flushes, just general lethargy...To be honest i thought i might have caught this horrible e coli virus that's infected Germany. I think i'm safe though.

It's a bit scary, i want salad and fruit but i'm cautious about what i can and can't eat!!

Suffering from anxiety doesn't help matters either!!

Anyway, that is all for today, i'm off out to get some chamomile tea and throat lozenges and finish watching Great British Menu :)

Peas xx

cool yeah coooool!

Today i am going to sit down with a pile of paper and just draw and draw and draw.

It's really hot over here, scorching, and there has been an e coli outbreak which means we aren't allowed to eat salad. SALAD! It is such salad weather it's just not fair.

I am still waiting for my care package off my lovely sister to come, i don't know what she's sent, but that's all the fun! I am expecting some topshop cream blush....fingers crossed!!

My submission for 'if i was you' has been accepted, yeey :) It was a strange one, because i think it's the first time i've had to work to some sort of brief. I made the mistake, as i always do, of trying to be something i am not. I did one drawing to try and 'fit in' with the other illustrators but i just made a pigs ear of it. I then sat down and just drew what popped in my head, which is how i normally work, i play a kind of word association game and draw what makes me laugh.

Lesson learnt.....learned.....i never know when to use which one!!

Always remember, people like what you do, not what you try to do. If that makes sense??!!

Stay true to yourself guys x Peas x

looking back.

So being in Berlin and not having a job that gets me out of the house has given me a lot of time to think about things.

I have no friends. No real friends like i had back in school anyway.

This makes me feel really down. I had friends, not loads, but a special one or two. They were pretty much the best friends anyone could ask for. Some in particular helped me through a very difficult stage in my life and i will forever be grateful to them, the only problem is, i don't speak to them anymore.

I feel like i lost my friends as soon as i got a boyfriend. This was, and still is, the first relationship i have ever been in. It gave me a new take on things. We were 17, pretty much 18, and it was really hard to try and spend as much time with a new bf, and my old friends.

I should have made time really. Then i went to uni in manchester for a year, with said bf, then i came home and by this time i'd stopped speaking to everyone i used to know. I think it's my own fault really, they do say it takes two to have a conversation, it's not like i was ignoring people, but it takes two.

Now with facebook we can say hello, how are you, how is life. But it's not the same. It's not the chats like we used to have. I'm sure everyone at some point in their lives has gone through this.

I suffer badly with depression and social anxiety.

I have no idea when or where or how this developed, but it did. I hate being around people because i am super paranoid that the second we leave each others company, they are going to talk about me. I'm not happy with myself, so i blame part of the anxiety on that, i hate myself, so why wouldn't anyone else hate me??

This is the craziness my mind comes up with on a daily basis.

I want my friends back, i want to be able to go out and have a good time without worrying what people think of me.

It's hard though, it's hard to break through.

I realise my post today was a wee bit morbid and self indulgent, but i needed to get it off my chest somewhere, to someone.

On another note, i hope to start a diet and exercise regime 2moro or wednesday, it's up to me to make a change, and i want to do so...

Peas xx

i am dumb!

Afternoon chillun' :)

Not much to report today, i pretty much stayed in my pyjamas ALL day, had a bath and finished reading The Lost Symbol by Dan Brown, and then got obsessed with the apparently predicted 2012 conspiracies!!

Not good for my poor little over-imaginative brain!! It's ok though, i would appear apocalypse has been mistranslated through the years and actually means 'to unveil/reveal'.....so apparently the world will end 'as we know it', because we're going to obtain new knowledge that betters our lives........or some shit, i don't know!

After 4 weeks in Berlin and reading the only 2 books i brought with me, and the 2 food magazines, i went down to the post box today and found an envelope filled with Reveal and More!!! Yeeeey thank you little sister!!

So i am going to go and indulge in some celebrity gossip and pictures while my spaghetti sauce slowly bubbles away on the hob.

I leave you with an old illustration i found that makes me laugh, my mum calls the dance 'crumping' a 'crumpet dance', so she inspired me!

Peas x

Can you ride a zebra?

morning people :)

yesterday i baked, quite a success, they were lovely! the cream was more like joghurt than a sweet cream, a nice compliment to the chocolate...

i was also learning how to photoshop illustrations so i don't have to beg my boyfriend to edit my drawings for me, found it difficult but i got through it. i edited my 'if i was you' illustration.

i'll post on here as soon as it goes up, don't want to give any sneak peaks!

i don't really have any plans today apart from dying my hair. have had a hair disaster recently. a hairdresser came round and mislead me, told me she wouldn't cut it all off and that she'd leave me with, and i quote, 'more than an inch of hair'.

she lied.

so i now have this wierd pixie cut that i'm still not entirely sure about. also i need to dye it and i normally have the comfort of longer hair hiding any hairline stains.....there is no hair to hide anything!!

will report back in the morrow, hopefully with something a little more interesting to discuss!!

i'm expecting a care package of goodies from england this week so i look forward to sharing!

peas x

Updating and reorganising

Since i last blogged.....

• i learned how to knit and made a really wide but really short scarf, fail
• i moved to back to berlin for a while
• i celebrated turning 25, which is halfway to 50, which is really really freaky
• i started learning photoshop.....it's a struggle, my brain is against me!
• i fell in love with karl pilkington, seriously in love, and for my birthday i got all of his books and fell a little but more in love ha, thanks boyfriend :D
• and finally i discovered cynol hair powder and thus ended my ongoing quest to find the best product that keeps my hair looking matte, volumised and styled for hours and hours and all of the day, yess <3

Obviously i have done a little more than just this, work and life and love etc, but these are the thing i fancied mentioning!

At the minute i am taking part in Sandra Dieckmann's 'If i was you' project which is very exciting indeed, looking forward to seeing me up on the site in such great company.

There is much more i want to say but i don't want to make this post too long and boring so i will be back every day this week to make a post :)

I'm off now to make some Dr.Oetker Himbeer-Schoko cupcakes now x much love all

Hypocritical

Hmmmm, i realise this blog is called Shellington Draws, yet there are, no drawings.....

Ha! Uuuppps! Soon people, very soon indeed.

So after crying for about 8 hours straight this weekend i came to a conclusion. I am going to teach my self how to use photoshop, illustrator, cinema etc and then try my hand at combining my illustration and art background with a new technological direction. Early days yet, i had a bit of a strop because i couldn't use photoshop, didn't understand a word of the tutorials.
Managed to edit a couple of photos though....




Here is me, i stick by the claim that i have the worst bed head ever, not just here, in life.




And these little bad boys were parked near us in Berlin.

Speaking of Berlin, i've decided to go back. Maybe not for the whole 3 months, but definitely 2. I can pound those pavements and find a cleaning job i am sure of it. Maybe even some more dog walking. This time will be better i think. We know what to expect now, know what to pack etc, it's very exciting. I'd move there 2moro given the chance, school can wait really, not that fussed about it. We'll give my new career option a chance, if it's looking like it's working out, well, we'll cross that bridge when we come to it!

I'm away now folks, my room needs cleaning, i found 7 pringle tubs :-0 No idea where they've come from, must just be a build up of crap!!
Oh dear.....
Then 2moro some photoshop revision, packing away of my books etc that i'll be taking with me when i move out, and a gig!!
Reel big fish and The Skints!

Yes, i think i'll have myself a beer :)